I shall make an attempt to document the significant episodes in my life thus far (after the last posting)
The beginning of an new beginning
Like what you have seen in my previous entry (which succinctly sums up this sub post), i tried to make a wholehearted attempt at last, to resolve and clear up whatever nascent trouble in my life.
As i came to a near breaking point, i made myself promise... myself 3 things.
To do just 3 things. Which i did.... It took my significant courage for me to own up to my misdeed. While my mind ran through its prediction of what things might things, reality showed otherwise. My parents made me mist and realised all at once, what a fool i had been.
Two. I though a whole deal about my priorities at this current stage of my life and i came to the realisation that studies should be my main priority and not any other thing or person or ideal. I am just not cut out to handle so many crackling tasks at once. It serves once again as a sound reminder of my limitations as an individual, that i wasn't as outstanding as i thought i would be.
No.... I can't run though fires unscathed and smash into walls unhurt. In short, I'm not superman and i shouldn't despair that i'm not. it is just being human, recognising your own limitations and how best to work around them. It just isn't right for me to keep trying to beat the damn system, trying to prove the whole world, trying to prove a point, trying to prove that i'm just good. it's pointless. Experience has shown me that it is crap and I should just move on with my lessons.
Three. I should quit my term time job which is draining me too much than I would want to admit. Yes it does. But whatever the validity of this and whether this can or can't be disproved isn't an issue to me at all. When a crisis hits, you switch to crisis mode. You drop everything and FOCUS on the issue on hand. That's how things should work in the world of Standard Operating Procedures (SOPs). So like it or not, off goes my job, the extra pocket allowance be damned.
Leaving RTC
In private, however, i quite welcomed the quit. For once it represent a closing of a chapter that was linked to my previous relationship. For a proper closure of the latter, for me to properly move on and focus, it was necessary to mandate that i leave RTC. There were some other minor reasons as well. My face was getting worse and worse and i don't know... just bad. I suppose that the bad ventilation in the kitchen isn't doing any good to my pathetic face. They can go an save costs for all i care. They can start cutting the shifts of part timers for all they like. I am out of the place.
"New Order". I must have sounded like a fanatic communist baying for change. It must have been my most uttered phrase in all of my nearly 2 years there. A mere 1 month holiday stint somehow could extended to such a long stay there. I have watched people come and go. A big fight that culminated in a sacking. Politicking that resulted in a few corporate suicides. I have seen the good and bad sides of people. I have seen myself grew and changed from a cautious and careful worker to a bold and conceited old bird who had heaps of scorn for just about anything.
Nevertheless, my sense of propriety is still intact and i shall now proceed to thank and credit the people of whom i had worked with and shared my good times together...
thank you Alan for training me and teaching me the ropes when i was a greenhorn and new to this staid world of F&B. I never forgot that you forgo the need to send me home one night and instead, you had me holed up at the Rooftop to do some stuff at my leisure. You are a very nice person to work with. I appreciate your effort to let me on a job offer from 1°15 when you left for greener pastures. The times i spent working on Rooftop really make me go nostalgic now. It must be the surreality of memories that makes nostalgia such a mysterious construct.
thank you Edmund for allowing me to realise that working in RTC can be such a helluva of fun. The times we spent singing to the tune of Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word are just undescribable. I guess our wackiness spread to the rest of the kitchen crew somehow. Once i overheard the demi chef, Amby hum the tune softly. hahas what a blast! There were just too many many spontaneous humourous moments there and then.
thank you Azhar for being such a solid runner. When everyone else was saying that you are a half past six worker and all, i didn't buy it. I remember that you treated me with disdain at first. Fortunately you gradually warmed up. You made me understood that to gain a person's respect and confidence, you must respect the person and prove it through your actions and show through your sincerity. I hope things are okay with you and your girlfriend. I was concerned then when you told me that you were on the verge of marriage but i hoped that i helped you make a wiser decision through my counsel. I suppose that you are nearing the end of your polytechnical education at the point in time. I wish you all the best in your FYP bro! the times we spent making wisecrack jokes of Henry, Ah Beng and Tommy were unforgettable.
thank you Michelle for listening to my troubles when we take the train home together. Though we once stayed in the same block, i never once saw you in Yishun which is incredulous. After all, you resided one unit 4 floors above mine. Lol, i suppose God has his plans.
thank you girls namely, wendy, lina, peiqing, jasmine and yuling for those light moments. "Polar bear"... "Hump"..."Go and bang the wall please" i will remember them. lol
thank you ah hua for being such a chummy brudder always. Everytime without fail i will go "ah huaaaaaaaaa~" and you will gamely reply "yessssssssssssssss?" HAHAS. I wish you all the best in your FYP as well.
thank you Eddie for being such an understanding boss. you are very chin chye and understanding. I think it augurs well for your future. i wish you well in your endeavours.
To all the chefs i have worked with.... i have nothing but words of appreciation and gratitude. You have treated me with respect, as an equal when i am a mere part timer. I am thankful to the entire kitchen crew for being with me during those horrid days when the printer just keeps going "zzzz ZZZ zzzz ZZZ". I have certainly picked up pointers other than work wise from you guys. I respect you guys from the bottom of my heart. It is certainly not easy to work and make a living in the kitchen. Respect.
My Face
Here is the complete story once again. I must have heard the familiar question so many times. Eric?!?! What happened to your face? -_-'''
i nevertheless thank you for your care and concern when i know all too well that you could have chosen to shut up and not care a single bit.
6 months ago i ate crabs when we went for a farewell dinner for my sister's sending off in June. That was the start of the trouble. I consulted 2 GPs, one self-proclaimed skin spaysailist (pui!) and a professor at NSC and now i am at Punggol Clinic, consulting Dr Diane Jek Siu Yin.
one of the GPs gave me a steroid cream Dermanol-C 0.1% (Bethamethasone Velerate) which i ended up applying for 2 mths. That caused an adverse reaction because steroids are not supposed to be applied for periods exceeding 5 days at a time. The result was a face full of white heads. But to be fair, my face is a complex situation of eczema rashes with pustules/nodules/comedones which was difficult to treat. Then the spaysailist!!! proceeded to ruin my face by using an acid wash on my face which saw it weeping from dusk to dawn.
T.T
I have seen her for the second time now (today was the second consultation). I guess for now i shall just leave my face in her trust and see how it goes.
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