i have alienated the world or has the world abandoned me?

Sometimes it is hard to come to terms with the actuality of my life. I am lost on the irony of the proverbial moment. It is not hard to understand why. I am always surrounded by people. In school, the lecture theatre, the corridors... at home...on the bus...everywhere. But yet, i just can't relate to my surroundings. It is as if i am cocooned in a visible ether that shuts me off socially from everyone else. i say things to you, make a smile and a joke here and there but ironically i feel shut off. I just can't relate to this world that i find increasingly foreign. In a place teeming with crowds, i feel an acute sense of loneliness and isolation.

I see travesty at every corner. I spot hedonism on the glacial creep by the moment. I feel the decay setting in on the old order of this very world i am in. And as i try to make sense of this whole fracas, it is perhaps with ignominy that the corrupt world is now coercing me to comply with its new distorted vision of the new order. My moral compass is spinning with rage, an obvious rejection of this nonsense.

But still i am trying to find my own piece of the blue sky, my very own space...perhaps a world that only we both know.