Thursday, December 08, 2005

i'm a baby...i'm a toddler...i'm a boy...i'm a teenager...i've yet to transform to become a real man...

At times i walk proudly with a distinct spring in the step. I'm riding high on euphoria...on cloud nine. In fact, Urong did say that i present a supremely confident look. That air of smugness, the aura of self-confidence really can suffocate people around me... But how can it be that i can suddenly morph into a droopy fella, highly self-conscious and fidgeting, clearly ill at ease with myself?

I can't even describe the transition because these 2 modes because... i don't even know whether there's one in the first place. Am i like sort of a alternating current? Changes rapidly without warning? I tell myself when i wake up," get your act sorted out."

Is this some sort of a premature mid-life crisis?? For goodness' sake, i'm not even 20 yet... Midlife crisis huh? Wallowing in self-made depression or more like being moody for no apparent reasons?

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