Reflection...

Sometimes i feel that Nights off are not really that great after all... To a certain extent, it may seem a tad cruel to just let you have a sniff of the true civilised world out there and then pull you out of it the next instant... Well, i may be unjustified and wrong because the intentions of having Nights Off are good essentially and i do appreciate them, thank you very much...

Some of my friends here apparently do not agonise over such nitty gritty details. I wonder if they have even thought about this, if at all. To them, a chance to book out is one chance not to be missed at all costs. This is how i perceive their take on Nights off. Simple observation, really.

Talking about nights off reminds me about another thing on my mind- My imminent return to the real world. It is really no coincidence that my Nights off coincide with the evening rush hour with the hustle and bustle happening all around me. I am taught by experience that i should be glad that i'm able to talk about coincidence here still.

As i stroll down the broad avenue teeming with bumper traffic, i see many facets of what might be me in the near future. That flustered salaryman, the totally switched off cool bloke on his mp3 player or maybe even that ubiquitous executive sitting at the bus-stop, stoning in his wait for that elusive bus... I wonder if these fellas are secretly mocking at me deep down inside. "Ha! What have we got here? A NSF!? *Sniggers... Wait till you see what's in store for you when you happily and unknowingly shout ORD!"

I shudder at the thought of this... My OC of the training Institute that i went to once said," When you leave the army, you will realise that your time here was spent in relative peace.There's no need to worry about utilities-you can shower a hundred times a day and nobody will scold you, living expenses are no issue-the SAF will never fire you even if you really CMI and there are no rentals to worry about-rent what rent?"

Maybe our zeal and eagerness have reached such a zenith that we might have thought that the world out there is really the greener pasture across the proverbial bridge. Is my vision already clouded? Or am i merely muttering nonsense?